And I swear it's the last time,
And I swear it's my last try.
And we'll walk in circles around this whole block,
Walk on the cracks on the same old sidewalks.

And we'll talk about leaving town,
Yeah we'll talk about leaving.
I swear it's the last time,
And I swear it's my last try...

Less Than Jake is pretty cool.

i guess when I slammed my head
into your desk it made me just
a little bittle baindread.

Ticking tocking clock that just won't stop,
Why won't you let me get any sleep?
I have to go to school tomorrow,
So please let me count some sheep.

Surrender, give up, wave the white flag
throw down your pride, glory, and hope.
You just sentenced yourself to a life of hell.
Now they cover your eyes with a dirty rag.
Now they muffle your mouth with cotton.
Now you hear shouts and orders.
Now you're dead.

Whoosh. Gosh. Mosh. Marsh. Harsh. Cold. Bold. Hold. Carry. Bear. Hair. Share. Wear. T-Shirts. Shorts... Warts?

I'm tired of complaining. I'm tired of being stared at. I'm tired of doing stupid things. I want to be normal.

Yeah. Pretty much, I'm tired of being who I am. I don't like it when I'm hyper, because it scares people away, or people start to judge me and label me as a Crack head, ADHD kid, or somehtign else. It's stupid, that people judge before knowing. But I guess it's what makes the world go 'round, huh?

I'm sick of people acting like they know me, or making decisions or oppinions for me. People seem to think that what I show on the outside, is who I am. Nothing more than a hyper ass kid who's weird and laughs at everything. yeah, that is me, but it's not all of me. There's more, I'm also a troubled kid like most teenagers. Yeah, it's true, i don't really have it all that bad. I'd say the worst thing in my life is that I only see my mom about once or twice a year. But I tend to make things worse for myself. just so I can get the attention of being a troubled kid. It works for adults, people seem to look at me and shake their head in dissapproval or pity. god how I hate that.

I've had these hopes and dreams of being a rock star, playing drums or guitar or singing. Yeah, that'd be the perfect life. But I can't sing, nor can I write Lyrics. I can't play the Guitar well. I haven't tried drums really, but i don't think I can keep a tempo and beat like some of the drummers I listen to. In truth, i think i'm going to be one of those cubical workers who don't have a life. But I don't want a life like that. It's just not my style.

Ugh. I don't know what i'm ranting about anymore. i dont' want to complain, but I'm doing it right now. God, lif eis complicated.

Ahhhh! I'm turning Emo! Heeelllllp!

School is boring. There needs to be some kind of big advent where everyone dies... I mean, where people get hurt... Ah... no, what I really truly mean is I think there should be more fights in school. =)

I had a little talk with someone today, and I explained why i don't like penasquitos. In all true reality; I don't like Penasquitos cause it's not Mira Mesa. Haha, yeah stupid huh? But it's true. Mira Mesa had everything I liked; Asians, Hott girls, Problems, Fights, and all sorts of mischief and toruble. Penasquitos is like... not. It's way too rich and high class.

Yeah. Random bickering. Yeah...... Ever wanted to run up to a Middle schooler who thought he was a hardcore gangster and flip him off yelling "FUCK YOU!" at the top of your lungs? I have...

Woo. Woo woo, 1 2, 1 2 Make noise.

been going to church lately. Actually kinda fun. Friday was game night, had Halo 2 and like 3 Xbox systems hooked up, playing LAN. It was awesome. Today was game night. I thought a whole buncha people were gunna show like back in the day. Only 7 people were there. that's pretty small. but hey, there was a good thing. I got to play the drums, after a few minutes on them I started to remember some rythms and beats from when I use to play. The Youth Leader says I can come and practice whenever I want, and I can be in the Highschool band too. But I still need alot more practice. But yeah. it was great.

Friday was cool. I dressed up really nice, got alot of compliments. Aside from some class problems in Math, it turned out to be a great day. I did good on my speech in english. Although I forgot some of my visual aids and stuff at home and he probably docked me some points for that. ohw ell. People said I did a good job, so I'm not discouraged.

There's a party on monday that a few people want me to go to. I'onno though, cause it's a formal party, which means dressing up nice. I guess that's the kind of parties these rich people have. Still pondering if I should go or not.

I have ALL of next week off, and I'm so thankful for it. I've been needing a vacation, even if it is a mini one.  If anyone would like to do something, i'd be happy to get together with ya'. =) Just IM me or Text message me on my phone 692-1179. Don't worry, I now have 1,000 txt messages per month, so it won't cost em alot of money like it use to. All right, that's all. peace.